Strong, unfightable feelings. I do not know exactly when they came over me, spinning my entire world around like a windstorm, sudden and intense. The reason why music started sounding better, hitting straight to the heart instead of just travelling through my ears, despite no alterations to it’s basic notes. He was the drug which I would want, and no amount of it was ever enough. Without him, there would be withdrawal symptoms… loneliness, unhappiness, and the constant Come back here in my mind.
But then I see another figure, her long strands of hair in the shadow next to his. He pulls her close, and they laugh, which tears me apart like a bullet, smashing down the courage I had been building up.
He can’t know.